NEW DOMAIN!
Posted by daycruz on March 6, 2008
Stop coming here! I don’t write here anymore. I have this exact same blog, except for the design and domain somewhere else.
I will be writing at http://www.decruzp.com from now on. Please visit me there. I’ll leave this post up as a reminder to people.
Kevin Hagan said
Decruz, it is time to bury the ideological hatchet. I may be a prick.
However, I am going in early October into an open heart surgery
suite. The surgery is so rare it can only be performed regularly at
Hopkins(Jades nieghborhood) Mayo Clinic Jacksonville (my friend
Kristin’s Waugh’s neighborhood. Or Houston (the shithole of the
universe neighborhood. if they are full there is a surgeon at UCLA
who is willing to give it “the old college try”t though that does not
fill me with hope. I am seriously reaching out trying to rectify
friendships i have fucked up over the last several years before I face
the very real prospect of my own demise. Please do not shun me. Talk
to me Decruz. I have done NOTHING to Earn the right to ask this of
you, but yet, really, truthfully facing my own mortality I beg you to
speak with me again. I have been an total fucking asshole to you. I
acknowledge it, I own up to it. I confess it before you, and before
Christ and before God the Father. If you ask it of me, I will confess
it before the entire community of our friends on facebook or myspace
or any other forum of your choosing. BUT PLEASE, MY Brother Christ,
who I acknowledge as, even though I truthfully believe your belief’s
in “charismatic” gifts are heretical. Please speak to me. I am so
alone, and so terrified. I give you permission if you wish spread this
e-mail, to show what a pathetic specifiable Kevin Hagan has become.
But I ask you as my brother in Christ not to. I do not deserve your
mercy, yet in granting it, think how much greater you become in
granting mercy to one who is unworthy of it. I want reconciliation
with the people I respect before I die. I truthfully (if you were my
friend on face book you would see all of the postings) face death in
the very very near future. I do not want to face it knowing I have a
single enemy in Christ left on earth. Decruz if you cannot be my
friend, and I will readily admit that I do not diserve to be your
friend, please let me be your brother in our Lord and Savior Jesus
Christ. We may not agree on doctrine but we both agree that he died,
went to hell and rose from the dead triumphant over SATAN. So that
our sins can be forgiven. If you truly hate me, let this e-mail pass
into your junk mail. However the Decruz that I know was not capable of
HATE, he had an abundance of Christian charity almost to the point of
weakness and it is to that I appeal. I have nothing to offer you, no
money, no power, no prestige, just my sincerest apologies for my
offensive and inexcusable behavior. Decruz, I do truly face death in
the next month very possibly. Please grant me your pardon if not
friendship. I know I have wronged you, and I have prayed, in group,
with tears in my eyes for forgiveness of the wrong I have done you.
My brother in Christ please release me from my wretched bond of
bastardom and let me join you hand in hand in our mutual adoration of
our savior one last time before the end.
Truly yours in Christ,
Kevin Hagan